Long Time

It's been a long time, and I don't really think I'll be here much. Too many sad memories with my blogs on here. I do have a blog on tumblr though. Jayareme.tumblr.com

Crea's Tale (Dawn of Emotions in a nutshell)

There was once a small child named Crea. She was truly happy in the world that she was in, the one that she kept in her mind. She thought that everything was perfect until she thought little of the most important person in her family's past. For the next six months, Crea was forced to watch how that person had met her family, drastically changing their lives. While Crea watched Dawn, Crea also learned about who she really was, and how much she truly wanted to change. By the time Crea was finished, she was a completely different person, yet she wanted to keep the sister she almost had.

That's the easiest way to put Dawn of Emotions. It's a high fantasy tale about Crea's look into Dawn's past and how the six year old girl changed her family's, and eventually Crea's, life forever.

Can You Hook A Teen Blogfest Contest Entry

Title: Dawn of Emotions

Genre: YA High Fantasy

I don’t really care about all of this, but hey, it’s an easy grade. This assignment is about somebody who’s made an impact on my family before I was born. I just want to get this done, so here’s the jist of it. This little girl was picked up by my now dead uncle. He loved her, or so I was told. He had my mother take care of her while he was away doing whatever. Then he died, and left the little kid with mom. Then the girl died because she wasn’t a human. She wasn’t important, but people thought she was. I don’t care. Just fail me already. I hate this class anyway.

Okay….So. That didn’t go well. I failed the class, and then mom got mad, so now I had to go see an oracle to see the entire story from when my uncle met the little girl to when she died. I had to write down everything I see and hear. Let the suck begin.

So I finally made it to the oracle point that mother had arranged for me. It’s close to home, so mother would know if I ever came there. I was stuck there, so I might as well have done what I was supposed to. It wasn’t going to be a very pleasant experience, but it’s much better than just doing nothing for three hours.

Apples and Oranges (Think about it for a second)

Someone based my writing skills from my blog post, saying that it’ll take an act from God for me to get published. What I don’t understand is how she could compare something that was meant as my life and my views on what has happened to something that is not from my point of view. Journalism and fiction are two completely different things. It doesn’t matter how you see it, you can’t judge one based on experience in another. That is where ignorance comes in.

It’s like saying that someone won’t be a good drummer because they can’t sing. Both are in the same type of work, yet you don’t have to be able to do one to do another. Does that make sense at all?

I have put a lot of thought into my posts on here. I think about what I’m trying to say, and I really do enjoy writing in here. It keeps my mind clear while getting my opinion out there. This isn’t a creative means for me to work on my writing. It’s a hobby of mine that I’m using to grow a following. There are maybe four people who follow this blog right here, and I have 107 people who follow my twitter. Does that matter to me? Yes. Numbers matter to me, because I enjoy seeing them grow. It means that I’m getting somewhere.

That’s not the point of things though. My point is that you can’t compare apples to oranges, a term that’s been used time and time again. You don’t compare things that are similar, but not alike to one another. Compare dogs to dogs and cats to cats, but how can you compare which makes the better pet based on what they can do?

If you were to simply base what I can do as a writer based on just what I do as a blogger, you’ll never see my full potential. Why? Because both are two styles of writing to me. They’re very different, and I’ll use someone else as an example.

John Green is one of the best writers of our time. He also has a vlog on youtube with his younger brother. In his books, his characters act and talk much differently than John does. John doesn’t even cuss in real life unless he’s reading aloud, although his characters have creative languages at times to put it lightly.

That’s why writing fiction is very hard. Journalists write things from their perspective. They have a clear idea as to what they want to say on things. Fiction writers don’t have that. They have to create people that don’t exist and give them distinct personalities that are worth reading about.

Can a journalist write fiction? Of course they can. Can I be a journalist? Of course not. I’m not going to be writing newsworthy topics. I’m just writing things as I see them. I do write everyday. It’s not in here. It’s not on my book. It’s everywhere I can. I love to write, so if someone says that it’ll be an act of God for me to get published, just makes me laugh, especially if they know nothing about my writing.

Now, one final note on here. If anyone is interested, I am looking for a few beta-readers who enjoy reading Young Adult Fantasy. Any takers?

Always Waiting For The Best

“We’re all waiting for the best song ever
It’s somewhere out there, and everyone can feel it”

That’s from The Best Song Ever by Chris Rice, one of my all time favorite singers. Those words are very universal though. People as a whole are waiting for the best ______ ever. Filling in the blank is easy. There’s the best girlfriend, the best day, the best computer, the best boss, the best book, the best instrument, the best person, the best chair, et cetera.

That’s how we all live life. We may not all push for it, but we’re still waiting, hoping that the best _____ comes along. We’re willing to give our all for that when it comes along, and it’s not always the best thing for everyone.

For example, to me the best instrument is either the drums of the bass guitar. I love how the drums keep the beat, and the bass just has this amazing sound. Other people like other instruments, but those are best for me.

Anyway, my point is that as we wait, even when we find the best, sometimes, we don’t see it as that. Why? Because, even when something hits us deep down, we think that it’s not good enough. When I think on this, the first thing that comes to mind is music. We hear songs on the radio and we love them, but after a while we listen to a new song, and it replaces the old.

That’s a common concept, but it rarely works with anything important. Anyway, there’s my food for thought for the day. Take care. Oh and listen to Chris Rice.

Wedding Vows

This is my uncensored wedding vow to the love of my life. I'm going to use a name that she associates with that has nothing to do with her real name, although I do adore her real name. I just wanted to respect her online presence, while showing her how I really felt about her. You see, I left her for someone else, and I've regretted that choice since the day I made it. I'm suffering from depression because of my choice, but this is something I have to live with. Thanks to God's grace, she's giving me another chance, but it's not going to be as easy as before. Anyway, this is for you my love.

Iris, I loved you from day one. You were everything I wanted in a woman and so much more. Your smile melts my heart even to this day, and I love hearing you laugh. I love even when you rant at me about work, because it makes me feel important, like nobody else has that in your life, because I'm the one that you went to. When I hold you, I never want to let go. You're precious to me, Iris. I really mean that. I've never felt this complete with anyone else, and even though there are times where I feel like you're too good to be true, I still want to do all I can for you, for our future, for our family. I don't want to just be like most men out there, feeling like my wife is there for me. No. I'm here for you, for all you need, and for all that you are. I will support you in everything that you do, no matter how hard it will make me work to keep things together. Not only are you worth it, I won't stop until your dreams are our life. I love you, and I can't stress how your love makes me feel.

Now for the parts that I'm adding because of what I've done to her.

I've done a lot of things that are wrong, things that a man shouldn't do to the woman he loves, and I know that I shouldn't be saying these words right now, that I don't deserve to be standing right next to you right now, but here I am, looking into the eyes of the woman I can't live without. Thank you for giving me this chance, Iris. I really didn't deserve this.

Character Themes

As a writer, I’ve almost always found songs that really help when I’m writing about certain characters. I thought I might share a most of the ones for the memorable characters in Dawn of Emotions. Maybe somebody will find this after reading the book and they’ll get some sort of understanding.

First we have Crea, since she’s the one who’s going to through everything. Her song is In The Light by DC Talk. Listen to it, and you’ll see how much of an impact Dawn has on the girl.

Then there’s Dawn herself, whose song will always be Love Song For A Savior by Jars of Clay. It’s the song that had a huge impact on Dawn’s character as a whole.

Kaym’s song has to be Alone by Sanctus Real. Even when he’s away from Dawn, she knows that he’s thinking of her, hoping that she’s okay without him. It’s a very deep song when I think about Kaym and Dawn’s relationship as adoptive father and daughter.

Sophia’s song was actually really hard to come up with, but it ended up being 21 Guns by Green Day. She ends up being Dawn’s mother, but 21 Guns really shows the affect that Dawn’s put into Sophia’s life.

Winter’s song is obviously Half Of My Heart by John Mayer. It’s pretty self explanatory on this one.

That’s all for the majority of the main characters. There’s still others like Drama Queen for Ravine, but that’s just normal with me. I have too many characters with songs, so it’s wonderful when I get to writing with all of their songs all the time